It’s been twelve days since I found out I am going to be put through the capability process and ten days since I was signed off sick. I should say I didn’t give my HT the chance to explain the procedure but having seen other colleagues go through it, I’m assuming I’ll get a period of ‘informal support’ before officially being placed on capability.
Being 55 in July, I’ve pretty much decided to take early retirement and cover my bills by doing supply work from September.
However I just don’t know if I can continue teaching the next fourteen weeks in a school where the SLT consider me to be failing. Being told I am holding back children’s progress is killing me. Partly because I don’t think it’s true but mostly because what if is it true? In 6 months I’ve gone from being ‘good’ to failing. How can that be? How can I be getting it so wrong?
I’m due back to work tomorrow and for the first time since my NQT year, I don’t know if I can teach well enough.